Rasa

Just re-open my old scratch book and got some old notes :)

Pernah aku menginginkan mempunyai sebuah rasa,
Rasa dimana aku dapat membaginya kepada mereka,
Hingga kuhabiskan suatu masa untuk mencarinya,
Dan kuputuskan untuk mengakhirinya...

Aku yakin bahwa rasa bukanlah milikku,
Namun dia menyapa dalam buaiannya yang indah,
Kepada hati yang telah tertutup salju,
Sebelum aku dapat berlari dan enyah...

Dia melukis warna pada dunia hitam-putihku,
Yang membuat diriku serba salah,
Salah akan arti dari sebuah cerah dan kelabu,
Sampai aku sesak dan tak tahu arah...

Terima kasih rasa atas segalanya,
Kau telah membuat arti pada diri ini,
Mungkin aku akan kembali mengunci hati dan raga,
Tapi sebelumnya akan kusimpan kau di tempat terindah,
Dimana aku dapat menyentuhmu walau tak bisa merasakannya...

-Pamungkas, 19 May 2009-

Day 7

Been a week.

I laugh. I smile.

Only with my lips.

Don't ask about my heart and my mind.

Because they will never be the same after that day.

Day 6

When nothing last forever really happen.

No need to worry.

No need to sorry.

Just believe that "happily ever after" is waiting for us at the end.

Day 5

When I look into your eyes

It's like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

Well, there's so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you've come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space

To do some navigating

I'll be here patiently waiting

To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn

Some even fall to the earth

We've got a lot to learn

God knows we're worth it

No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily

I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use

The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake

And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend

For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in

I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up, still looking up.

Well, I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)

God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)

We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)

God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up.

-Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up-

Day 4

It’s been 2 years 8 months and 28 days.

I never ever expected for this kind of things would be happen.

But it just happened.

It’s my fault.